Dear Fe-liners, over the last 12 months I have been writing a lot about becoming a Mum for the first time, how I felt when he was born, how it has changed my relationship with my own Mum, how I felt at 6 months, how it has changed me as a person, how I feel about mother shaming. So last week, little Frank celebrated his first birthday, so how do I feel one year on?
I have written a lot less about motherhood in the last 6 months compared to the first 6 months, this is because in many ways it has just become life, it doesn’t feel new any more, I am a Mum. Also in the last 6 months it has been harder to find the time to write, once Frankie started moving, there haven’t been so many quiet moments to sit and write. I have also got a little addicted to The Good Wife and sometimes I am so tired after a day of chasing a one year that an episode of The Good Wife is about all I can manage.
The last 6 months have definitely been physically harder, but in many ways I have found it so much more rewarding. It has been amazing to watch Frank grow from baby to boy. He can walk now, he can communicate with me and he responds and understands to what I say. His personality is so strong, he likes to make people laugh, he plays to an audience and he strops like a diva.
Personally for myself, I am in a really good place, I have a nice balance between work, looking after Frankie and seeing my friends. Finding good child care has been one of the most important things for me. Frank is looked after his Nanna three days a week. I am really lucky to have this arrangement, his Nanna loves him in the same way I do and I feel like I can work without having to worry as I know that he is in the best hands. He is building a really strong relationship with her, a relationship I think will be so important as he grows up.
The one massive thing that isn’t right with me at the moment, is my post baby body. It is a long way from the fit runner I once was and I am finding it hard to get it back to the way it was. Someone asked me why? It’s really because of a lack of time, less disposable income to spend on gym membership and also motivation, I feel like I have a massive mountain to climb. I think this might might be another blog, getting fit on a budget with little time to spare.
But back to motherhood, I have to say out of all my achievements, it is on the top of my list every time. Look at him, how could he not be?
Love and motherhood,